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Oct. 20th, 2011 @ 09:57 pm Kalarippayattu and Mews Updates
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I love my new spot in the park. Only three people passed by me today, and that was during warm-ups. 

I added another set of horses across the floor, so I did two sets forward, and two forward and back. My groin muscle pull was much better today, but I didn't push it. As a result, horses were easier. I did 3 sets of lions across the floor, and 2 sets of elephants. The second set was the second elephant pose. That one really tired me out, and now my upper arms feel a little rubbery. I also rehearsed boar and elephant. I keep forgetting about fish. I skipped cat. I started doing the basics of serpent, though. I practiced my snap kicks and my jump snap kicks and they are getting better. I like working out where I have this goal of where I know my body can get to. It makes it a lot easier to notice my daily progress. Then I did three sets of straight kicks across the floor, three sets of angles, and three sets of circles. My turns into the horse and my slap turns are very much improved already. My circle jump turns are still pathetic, though, lol. I need more leg strength to improve those, and probably less body weight wouldn't hurt. Finally, exhausted, I finished with the meippayattu. I was tired enough where I kept thinking, there's no way I can do this. But I did it. And I kept thinking, there's no way I can finish this routine. But I did. And that's pretty much how I have always felt when doing kalarippayattu. The final sequence is always a bitch, because I'm already so tired from practicing my form and working out, but I still manage to get through it. So, for now, I've found the balance. I worked out for 55 minutes, about 10 of which was stretching.

I do not understand how I can feel so relaxed after such a punishing workout. It's so strange to me. But that's kalarippayattu for you. Half yoga, half martial art.

The mews is coming along nicely. The base is down. The roof is constructed. Bill will be coming back tomorrow to assemble the walls and roof, and hopefully to put the door on, too, though that might have to wait until another time. He still needs to construct the drainage part of the roof, but I am so pleased at how far along it has come. Tim is annoyed, though, because the roof is currently blocking his workbench, and he has a games party this weekend that's going to require use of the garage. If for some reason Bill cancels tomorrow, we'll be in a real pickle. I can't lift the roof; it's too heavy. Moving it will be problematic.
Oct. 18th, 2011 @ 02:35 pm Kalarippayattu update: beginning week 2
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I had two days off to soothe sore muscles.  I was, oddly (for me), excited to get back to it today.  I headed off to my usual spot in Alum Rock Park to find it was very busy this morning, so I drove off toward my secondary spot...and found yet another spot that is even *more* secluded and actually slightly better, because it has a big open space with cement, and it is sheltered from the rain.  Sweet!  Cement isn't the greatest for the floor work when I have to be on my knees, but there's dirt right around it for that, but the cement works pretty well for the rest of it, the aerobic portion of it.  I imagine it will take its toll on my knees eventually, but it is better than my alternatives.  Only a few people passed by the entire time I was there, which was about 45 minutes.

After warmup stretches and sun salutations (two! full! again!), I did horses across the floor three times, one set backwards and the others with the proper turns.  Some of the muscles felt like I was pulling them a little again, but I just did my best to work through it and tried to get a deeper stretch anyway.  I did lions across the floor forwards and backwards three times each.  I did elephants across the floor and back once, with a hold at the end.  I did straights, angles, and circle kicks across the floor three times each, with the proper turns and jumps at the end of each.  My circle jump turns need work, but my form improved as I went on.  It seems to help me get height if I get deeper into the leading step.  Landing in the horse is still problematic, but it will be for some time until my horses improve.  I practiced lion kicks and jump snap-kicks into the horse.  THEN I did the full first meipayattu (although I might be making up the end set of steps).  I did straights and angles.  It wasn't nearly as hard as I remembered it being, which means I've either forgotten some steps or I'm not working hard enough leading into it.  

It was a great aerobic workout.  I tried not to take too many breaks between sets, but I was breathing hard.  At the end, my leg muscles felt warm and my legs felt a little rubbery.  A good sign, I think.  My kicks are higher and more stable already, but I have a long way to go to get back into fighting trim.
Oct. 13th, 2011 @ 03:15 pm Bay area peeps with yards:
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Does anybody I know in the bay area have a medium- to large-sized, mostly flat/unobstructed back yard that I could use for an hour on Saturdays, to work out?  I just don't know where I'm going to go on Saturdays that is unpopulated and has enough room for me to do kalaripayattu.
Oct. 13th, 2011 @ 03:07 pm Kalaripayattu Update -- Day 2
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Excellent workout today. Highly aerobic. I was sweating and panting (practically gasping if you really want to know the truth) like crazy. My muscles were sore at the beginning, but with the stretching and the workout, they warmed up nicely and performed pretty well, all things considered (weight, fitness). Since nobody wants to join me, I'm mostly writing this up so I can compare my performance on a monthly basis and see how and if I've improved.

I started with some yoga-style breathing through stretches. I remembered a few more that Zarrilli taught, and so I was able to increase my stretching to about 10 minutes. 

Then I did two full (both sides) sun salutations. The second half of them (the getting back up part) has always been the hardest for me. That hasn't changed.

I did three sets of horses across the floor, including one half-set backwards. Then I did three sets of lions across the floor, half of them backwards. Then I did one set of elephants (pose 1) across the floor. 

I practiced elephant (pose 2) and elephant (pose 3) to refresh my memory. I did 20 knee lifts with each leg. I did 10 lion snap kicks on each leg, which was very satisfying. I practiced the wild boar pose to refresh my memory.

I did three sets of straight kicks across the floor. The last set I did the full turn into the horse, but I didn't do the jump. I've never been able to do it, though. I did two sets of angle kicks across the floor. By this time I was pretty much exhausted. On the last set I did the slap-kick into the horse, but my form suffered from being so tired. I did one-half set of circle kicks across the floor. I couldn't do the turning jump-kick at all. 

Since I was so completely wiped out, and since the groundskeepers had converged on my location when I was partway through with my angle kicks, I decided to call it. I did a couple quick stretches, I did a bridge pose, and then I did the dead-man pose (my favorite).

I managed to do 35 minutes of aerobic exercise, plus the 10 minutes of stretching. Yay me!

My muscles feel warm and relaxed and flexible. And a little sore. I expect they will get more sore later today and tomorrow.

Next time: I work some more on the boar, I work on the peacock, I work some more on the lion leaps, and I try to remember the cat pose. Next week: Hopefully I can start doing the form at the end of every workout like we used to in Zarrilli's class. Overall goal: improve my focus and my breathing technique while working.
Oct. 12th, 2011 @ 05:48 pm Kalaripayattu update
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Changed venue: Alum Rock Park, way at the end.  
Changed time: Tuesday and Thursday late mornings or early afternoons, depending on my pet-sitting schedule.  Send me a note if you want to join me and I'll tell you when.

Saturday location TBD.  Alum Rock Park is very busy during the weekends.  Would prefer fewer eyes while I am still out of shape.

Yesterday went very well.  Today I'm a little bit sore.  Tomorrow I will still be sore, but I will do the workout again anyway.  I like it.

Bonus: saw some docents carrying owls around.
Oct. 11th, 2011 @ 08:09 am (no subject)
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Early morning wake-up fail. Will try kalaripayattu after pet-sitting, though that will mean more chance at prying eyes.

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Oct. 9th, 2011 @ 11:13 am Writer's Block: Happy birthday John Lennon!
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Do you think there will ever be world peace?

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Sure, when the human race is dead.
Oct. 9th, 2011 @ 11:12 am Kalaripayattu
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I am going to try to get back into doing kalaripayattu.  It's been over 10 years, though, so no telling how successful I'll be.  If anyone would like to join me, I'd be happy to have workout partners.  I can teach what I know of kalaripayattu, which is quite a bit.  I studied it for three years in college and for three months in India.  Kalaripayattu is an Indian martial art.  It is often referred to as a moving meditation.  It's an aerobic workout, focusing on improving flexibility and lower body strength.  Focus and breathing are important elements, as well.  There are a lot of kicks and no sparring; everything is choreographed.

I'm nowhere near as thin as I was when last I practiced it, nor as flexible and strong, but I'd like to get there again, and the only way is to work at it.  I have to remind myself that the more I move, the easier it becomes to move more.  I'm going to try starting Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays, and see if I can't eventually work up to daily.  But...given my depression and my busy schedule, who knows what will really happen.  Also, I don't have a space, so I'll probably try to find somewhere outdoors that is not very well-traveled so as to avoid spectators.  We used to practice it with observers while I was in college, so it's not that big a deal, except that I don't look as good doing it now as I did then. 

So, the schedule for this week looks like this, for those who want to join: 
7:00 AM, this Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, 1 hour workout
Location: across the street from the Wildlife Center of Silicon Valley, midway along the path between the road and the red bridge.   This is the only place I can think of right now that is fairly unpopulated and hidden from prying eyes, but has some space.  If anyone has any better ideas, I'd be glad to hear it.  I'll be scouting around.
This workout requires bare feet.
Aug. 17th, 2011 @ 03:47 pm Didn't get the job.
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I struggle with feelings of worthlessness.  This did not help.
Jul. 8th, 2011 @ 05:19 pm The Death of Wonder
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Why is it that so many people feel the need to deride your sense of wonder at something that is new to you, but old-hat and mundane to them?  It is a habit I abhor, and yet at times I have caught myself doing it, as well.  There is a certain pleasure to be taken in being "the one who knows."  I think, however, that that pleasure is far too often taken at the expense of another's sense of wonder.  In fact, I believe my sense of wonder (and naivete, true) has been slowly whittled away over the years by the contemptuous smirks and disdainful tones of others more knowledgeable than I, and I mourn that loss.  Even today I have moments of wonder, and I check myself before I am checked by others, and if someone does manage to comment sarcastically on something I found interesting, I feel shame, when really I think it is they who should feel shame for taking part in the death of wonder.

When I was graduating from EATM, all of the students were given an exit interview by one of the staff.  I was asked what was the most surprising thing about the program.  It could be anything.  The first thing that came to my mind was, I could get a mountain lion to Sit on command.  I dismissed this at first, because it seemed to me to be too innocent, too naive, too small a thing.  Before I could formulate a different answer, however, the staff member seemed to sense that I was backtracking, and said, "And it can be *anything.*  It doesn't have to be about the other students or the classes.  It doesn't have to be something negative.  It can be about the animals."  I felt a little silly telling her my first thought, since now it would look as though she had prompted it, but I could tell she was desperate for a positive answer, so I said it anyway.  I still regret a little bit that I didn't just say it outright, because I think it would have made her so happy.

Just today I was at California Extreme, photographing the set-up and the games for Tim.  I don't know very much about games, and Tim wasn't around, so I just took pictures of everything.  I was taking a picture of a cute-looking game with a white cabinet and multi-colored buttons that I'd never seen before, when somebody walked by and said, "You're taking a picture of a generic Astro City?"  I said yes and proceeded, but I flushed and I felt ashamed because apparently, based on his tone, it was a very lame thing indeed to take a picture of.  But then I felt angry.  How dare he criticize what I photographed?  It was none of his business, in the first place.  In the second place, many mundane things make excellent subjects for photography.  And third, it clearly wasn't mundane to me.  It was new and interesting-looking, to me.

The sad thing is, I think most people who contribute to the death of wonder have no idea the harm they are causing.  When I confronted this fellow about what he said, he replied that he only thought it was interesting that I was taking a picture of that.  It was just a generic cabinet that played a multitude of games, he said.  It wasn't even on, he said.  It would be like going to a software convention and taking a picture of a generic computer, he said.  Well, the first part indicated rather clearly that he did intend for the statement to be derogatory and that he didn't actually find it "interesting."  As to the second part, none of the games were on; the con is still in set-up phase.  And for the third part, who's to say that wouldn't be art to someone?  Who's to say it wouldn't make a cool thing to photograph if, say, you had never seen a computer before?  If you stop to think about it, computers really are pretty amazing, and worth admiration.  Not everyone who goes to conventions has seen everything there; that is part of the point of conventions: to wonder at things you've never seen before.  

I'm not trying to make a mountain out of a molehill here.  This is just a phenomenon I've noticed, and one I'd personally like to work actively against.  It seems as though the older you get, the more hip it is to have the knowing wink instead of the wide-eyed fascination.  It's okay for kids to be curious and naive and to examine the world around them, but for some reason it is taboo for adults to reveal that something commonplace is actually quite marvelous to them.  And so, I try not only to keep from squashing the wonder in others, but also to revel in it, to see things the way they do, because life is more fun that way.  And I want to learn to stop feeling shame when someone else treads on my sense of wonder.

What things have you found fascinating, but been ridiculed or otherwise derided for?  How did you handle it?  What do you think about adults maintaining that sense of wonder?
Jul. 1st, 2011 @ 01:13 pm Peter Principled
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Sigh.  I guess I have risen to the highest level of my incompetence.

Happy Hollow said no.
Jun. 27th, 2011 @ 12:28 am Writer's Block: Going for the throat
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Would you rather be a vampire or a vampire hunter, and why?

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Vampire.  Immortality.  And...the wages of sin sure beat minimum.
Jun. 25th, 2011 @ 05:41 pm Writer's Block: Toy box travesties
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What childhood toy did you desperately want that your parents refused to give you? Do you still think about getting one?

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When I was a little girl, I was a *huge* Star Wars fanatic.  My slightly older brother also enjoyed the movies.  We both frequently received Star Wars-based gifts, but the one I really wanted, when it finally came out, was the Millenium Falcon.  I asked for it, but was pretty sure I wasn't going to get it because it was probably expensive.  It was, however, the only expensive thing on my list. 

Well, that year, Grandma sent me to her bedroom to fetch something from under her bed...and there it was.

It was a huge box, and it had a picture of the Millenium Falcon on the side.  It was still a couple of months until Christmas, but I pretended I hadn't seen it.  Still...I was so excited!  I told Mike what I saw, and I asked him if he'd asked for it.  He said no!  I could hardly believe my luck.  My little heart fairly leaped with anticipation.  I said nothing more about it, and I waited patiently for Christmas to arrive.

Well, arrive it did.  There were plenty of presents under the tree at Grandma's house as always, so I really had no call to complain...but when somebody dragged out the giant box -- me knowing what was inside it -- and then handed it to my brother...I was utterly crestfallen.  I ran from the room and couldn't even watch him open it.  Nobody (except possibly my brother) even realized what I was upset about.  And of course, I couldn't tell them, since that would mean admitting I'd seen the present before it was wrapped.

The real kicker was, Mike hardly played with it at all. 

I think they gave it to him instead of me because it was a boy's toy.  That is something I really hate about toy marketing and parenting: putting kids into strict gender categories.  I've always been a big fan of science fiction, and so has my dad.  All throughout my childhood he kept trying to interest Mike in sci-fi (and other science-y things), and pretty much ignored me when it came to that.  He had no idea until I was an adult that I loved having seen Star Wars at age five in the movie theater, and that I can remember every bit of it.  I had no idea until I was in high school that my dad owned a copy of The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy!  Such a waste of bonding potential.  Dads: don't peg your daughters as girly-girls, and Moms: don't peg your boys as manly-men.



Do I still think about getting a Millenium Falcon?  Every now and then, but really I have enough toys as it is. :-)
Jun. 21st, 2011 @ 11:37 pm Writer's Block: Born again
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If you were reincarnated as an animal, which would you choose to be in your next life, and why?

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Hahaha, a bonobo, and I really don't think that requires any explanation.
Jun. 16th, 2011 @ 01:15 am Writer's Block: Practically amazing
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If you could have a power that helps you with day-to-day living, like the ability to always get a seat on the bus, what would choose, and why?

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My power would have something to do with being able to eat anything and always be the same healthy weight, because I love food and I hate being fat.
May. 27th, 2011 @ 10:32 am Names and Faces
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I have an uncanny ability to remember faces.  I can recognize actors in the most outlandish make-up, or who haven't been in anything for years, and even when everyone says, "No, it can't be that person," it turns out, 999 times out of a 1000, that actually it is the person I said it was.  It is practically a parlor trick how good I am at this.  I can usually make the identification within seconds of seeing the person, but I usually wait until I hear their voice for a confirmation.  The most recent example I can think of was when Tim and I were watching "The Invention of Lying" and I pegged Edward Norton halfway through his first line.  Tim didn't believe me until we were halfway through his scene. :-)

On the flip side, I have a terrible weakness when it comes to remembering names.  If I really work at it, I can usually remember a name, if I've seen it or used it recently.  Names that are similar confound me:  I'll call Greg "Gary" and vice versa.  I'll mix up Lindas and Lauras.  I have a devil of a time remembering actors' names, but I usually remember what I've seen them in (which makes my parlor trick a little bit of a guessing game for people when I say, "Oh, that's the guy who was in Fight Club.  No, the other guy.").  When I first started dating Tim, I used to accidentally call him by my last long-term boyfriend's name, Jim, much to Tim's consternation.  Several years later I had flip-flopped things and started referring to Jim as Tim when talking about things we'd done together, much to Tim's amusement.

I have a pair of clients who are identical twins with similar names.  And they live near each other.  One has a dog that I walk, and the other has a cat that I pet-sit.  This morning I ran into one of them thinking it was the other one.  I'd say hilarity ensued, but it was more like annoyance on her part and mortification on mine.  You can see how the problem might have arisen with my penchant for faces and my handicap with names.  To make things worse, they are actually triplets and the third twin is moving to San Jose in a couple of months.  I sincerely hope she doesn't have any pets.
May. 26th, 2011 @ 02:19 am Oh yeah, look at my icon.
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That monkey on my head belongs to Tom Gunderson, another EATM alum, and her name is Crystal.  She is going to be in yet another movie: The Hangover 2.  I would go just to see her, but I also liked the first movie, and I know there are some other cool animals in it, so I'm really looking forward to seeing it.

Other movies Crystal has been in: Pirates of the Caribbean, Failure to Launch, and both of the Night at the Museum movies.
May. 26th, 2011 @ 02:10 am Bird training report
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Just because I'm kind of bored:

I went to train the parrot (a caique) who likes to bite everybody (even, sometimes his owner, as I found out today).  This was our third training session together with the owner.  The first one, we worked on Target which I'd taught him while pet-sitting.  He is now so good at targeting it's almost ridiculous.  He will go to where the end of the stick is and bite it (and sometimes shake it), then the trainer will click and give him a sunflower seed.  He is no longer aggressive with the stick.  That is, he doesn't chew on it or bite it into pieces.  He bites and lets go.  It's great!  It's now a strong enough behavior that I would qualify it as a Control Behavior.  He will Target no matter what, because he knows it's easy, safe, and highly rewarding.  I taught the owner how to use the target stick appropriately: don't move it once it's set, don't wave it around in between behavior requests, be careful where you place it so he doesn't go for any part of the stick except the end.  And I taught her the golden rule of baiting with a treat: once you offer it, don't move it.  The bird has to come to it (make sure it's in a place where the bird can reach it), and don't move it closer to the bird if the bird balks.  The treat is a promise: if you come here, you will get the treat.

Last session, we started work on Step Up.  He knows Step Up, but the owner got out of practice with him, and now he only does it when he wants to.  She doesn't want to force him to do it whenever she wants him to, but is worried that he won't do it without fail.  I told her, the trick is, to make him want to do it every time.  So, we reintroduce treats.  The first session was tough.  He did not want to step up, and if she moved at all while he was eating a seed, he'd complain and maybe try to bite her.  But I we went through the motions and I asked her to work on it, and so she did.

Today's session showed major progress already.  When an animal knows a behavior but have forgotten it, they will typically relearn it again very quickly.  Today he started out not stepping up, but he eventually stepped onto her finger four times.  Apparently she also has some difficulty getting him to step off again, which is typical when you have a parrot who will only step up when they feel like it.  They feel like it for a reason.  So we also worked on him stepping back onto his perch.  There were some major flaws in her method of picking him up and putting him down.  For example, in picking him up, she would put her finger in front of him and below his feet.  Birds naturally step up and may go off balance a bit when they step down, so things will go easier for both of them if she remembers to offer her finger in front of him and above his feet (anywhere between the top of his legs and his beak would do fine, but closer to the bottom of his keel is best).  The bird was a trooper, though; he would still step down onto her finger, using his beak for balance.  This is tricky to do with him, however, because he has such a history of biting.  You never know when he's going to balance himself, or when he's going to bite.  So for consistency and predictability, I've asked her to adjust her Step Up positioning.  Then, when she was putting him down, she would back him against the perch, knocking his tail (which is annoying and uncomfortable for the bird), and require him to not only step down but step backwards, where he can't see.  So we worked on turning her hand around so he would face the perch she was putting him on, and once again bringing him up to the perch with his feet slightly below the perch so he can step up onto it naturally.  A good way to do it is to think about brushing his keel against the perch you want him to step up onto.

He did eventually bite her, because he wasn't ready to go back to his perch.  We used treats sometimes to get him to step off, but the final time, he just did not want to go, and she was positioning him a little awkwardly (his feet were pressing against the perch instead of his keel), so he bit her.  :-(  He finally stepped down after biting her, and unfortunately she gave him a treat for that, lol, but I think it will be fine in the long run.  She is ok, though, and afterward we did a little Target training to end the session on a high note.  Overall, the owner did a fabulous job.  She took direction on the fly, and she was able to pick him up and put him down several times successfully.  We made a lot of progress, and it felt good.
May. 11th, 2011 @ 02:58 am Writer's Block: Behind the wheel
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If you could have any vehicle (a helicopter, sports car, space ship, yacht, etc.) and a free place to park it, what would you choose, and why?

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I would choose the Heart of Gold.  Because so many improbable things would happen to me then.
May. 10th, 2011 @ 03:27 pm Writer's Block: Forever young
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If you found a magical stone that could keep one person young forever, would you keep it or give it to someone else? If the latter, to whom would you give it?

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I have to say, I've always wanted to be immortal, so I would keep it.  What a weird question.
May. 9th, 2011 @ 12:20 pm Weight Loss: Secondary Goal Met!
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Yes, I have hit my secondary goal, finally, after three or four weeks of not-trying-as-hard and only losing 0.x lbs.  1st week (actually just half a week): Easter, busy with work, had no energy to work out.  2nd week: still busy and didn't work out, but ALSO it was birthday and I ate badly on purpose and liked it.  3rd week: was just tired and depressed, so didn't work out as much (barely at all), and cheated a lot on the diet.  Still lost a little bit of weight each week, but last week I kicked it into high gear again, cheating just a little on the diet, and missing out only two days of working out because my back was killing me...and I was rewarded.  1.1 lbs total in that time. 

I'm a little bit bummed that I wasn't able to keep up the pace of 15 lbs a month, but I am very glad to have finally met the goal, and the cushion, I needed for IVF. 

My next two goals are: lose 15 lbs, and fit into the next pants size down.  In any order.

Guess I better go work out. :-)
May. 8th, 2011 @ 03:22 am Writer's Block: Put it all together, it spells Mother
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What's the most important lesson your mom taught you?

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I'm really not sure.  A lot of her lessons were lessons I had to unlearn as an adult.  I can't think of anything she taught me that was of any real value, except, maybe, how to bake a cake.
May. 7th, 2011 @ 11:17 am Bart and his Catio
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I updated it with a plastic floor so he can't dig out, and I've been slowly training him to stay in longer and longer.

I started with getting him to stay in just long enough to eat his meal, door open.  He gets fed twice a day.  He would initially not go in at first at all, and spend some 10-20 min. in the backyard before hunger would finally win out over fear and he would go in.

After a few days of that, I started closing the door.  If he freaked out, I'd open it again.  He only freaked out the first time, rushing over to the door and looking anxious.  After that, he stopped caring when I closed the door.  As soon as he was done eating, I'd open it again, and he'd go straight into the house.

Once he seemed comfortable with that, I started to wait until he reached a paw out of the cage to dig before I let him back in the house.  So by now, he would wander the yard for a while, then go in, then walk around his cage nervously, and then finally start to eat (because I wouldn't close the door until he started to eat).  Then I'd close the door and sit nearby and wait, and he'd finish and wander around looking for another exit, and then he'd reach a paw out, and I'd open the door and he'd go straight into the house.

At some point, I timed how long it took him to get closed in the cage to getting worked up enough to try to dig out.  10 minutes.  Good start!  Now I'd set the timer.  He would have to wait 10 minutes no matter what before I would come out and open the door.  He could yowl, pace, dig, what-have-you.  He was a little nervous when I didn't open the door at the first sign of freaking out, but he got to come in shortly after, so he didn't have too much time to think about it.

I incremented his time outside by 1 minute for every feeding session, so 2 minutes per day.  I've been bringing some treats or catnip out about halfway through to help keep him occupied as the times get longer.  I've been going away and doing my own thing while he spends time in his cage, but I still check on him.  Yesterday he went into his outdoor litter box for the first time.  Didn't seem to use it, but still, he went into it.  Progress.  Yesterday was also the first day he went straight into his cage instead of wandering the yard first.  This might have something to do with the fact that a couple of days ago Tim trimmed a bunch of the weeds in the yard, so the yard is no longer nearly so fun for him.

Today was the first day that he was doing something else when I came out to let him in.  Normally, if he doesn't have something to occupy him, he just sits by the cage door and waits, because he has come to learn that I *will* let him out eventually.  I am so pleased that he was off investigating something and just generally being comfortable.  He was out there for 21 minutes, but could have gone longer.  Once he gets to 30 minutes, I'll start incrementing the time by 5 minute intervals instead.  Slow and steady wins the race against Bart.
May. 6th, 2011 @ 06:33 pm Writer's Block: Superpower me
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If you could give one friend a superpower, which friend would you choose, and what power would you give him or her?

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Well, I'd have to give it to my husband.  And, if I couldn't consult with him first and ask him what he'd want, I'd give him technomancy.
Apr. 27th, 2011 @ 10:12 pm Bart progress
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So, now that Bart has had a few days to get comfortable walking around the yard, and going into his cage for food, I tried an experiment.  I tried putting him in his cage and closing the door.

He didn't yowl.  He didn't pace.  He didn't dig. :-)

He sniffed around.  He sat.  He chewed on foliage. :-)

When I tried to let him out, he stayed in.  When I tried to pick him up, he ran further into the cage (but eventually let me pick him up when he ran out of cage).

When the floor comes, he's going to be very easy to lock in.  He hates walking on the damn wood chips (that our landlord *won't* let us get rid of) anyway.

Switching him in and out has been very easy.  He goes straight into his cage for noms.  He goes back in the house pretty easily, though sometimes we have to pick him up or at least herd him in that direction.  He has taken to yowling at the the back door when he wants to go out.

I knew he'd get desensitized to the cage, I just didn't realize he would get there so soon.
Apr. 27th, 2011 @ 10:05 pm "Suspicious comments" and "Spam comments": LJ decision to 'block' spam i
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Originally posted by [info]heeroluva at "Suspicious comments" and "Spam comments": LJ decision to 'block' spam is a big FAIL!
So I've been noticing in both my own journal and communities that I haven't been able to see some comments even thought it says there are more comments there than are actually showing up. Instead I'm getting a place holder that says (Spam comment) or (Suspicious comment).

Why are these showing up like this you may ask? In their rush to fight spam LJ has created a new filter that're AUTOMATICALLY TURNED ON in ALL journals and communities, which screens comments that are made with 'suspicious links' ie links that are not on their safe whitelist, so pretty much the majority of the internet. There is no noted way to add to the 'whitelist'.

What really gets me is that they didn't inform people that they were doing this until a week after it was done and that it was automatically turned on.

So how do I turn it off you might ask.

That's simple. Go to your Settings, click on the Privacy tab, and half way down where it says Spam Protection uncheck the box next to "Comments containing a link to a non-whitelisted domain will be marked as spam and moved to a special section." This applies to both personal journal and communities and the opinion has to be manually changed in each one.

While I understand how this could be a good idea, I think they went about it in a very backhanded way, and have implemented it poorly. There was no message to anyone that the link has been screened. It's automatically done. This went on for over a week before they said anything about it. There is still nothing in the FAQs about it even. The only way I found out about this way going through the support pages where people were reporting similar issues.

Please share this!



ETA: This links really illustrates the problems.
Apr. 25th, 2011 @ 11:51 pm Bart is such an asshole.
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Sigh.  Bart pees in the house.  So I set up a beautiful catio for him in the backyard.  Sure, it was a cage, but it was 5'x5'x4'.  Much bigger than a travel crate. 

Well, he hated it.  He yowled and paced and climbed and just generally acted like we'd put him in some sort of giant torture device.  Well, we left him alone in there for an hour, and he dug his way out.  (Tim was oddly pleased about that.  We may have to rename Bart "Steve McQueen.")

So now I've ordered a plastic floor for the outdoor cage.  In the meantime, I've been feeding Bart outside, then letting him back in after he eats.  He's enjoyed spending time in the yard.  Our yard has tall, solid fences on two sides that join the garage wall with the house.  It's basically a small, square, fenced-in backyard.  The cage takes up about 1/4 of our backyard.  Bart at one time could climb the tree that leads to the garage roof.  I know this because that is how Bart and Milhouse initially came into our lives when they were kittens; they climbed down from the garage roof and into our yard.  Bart has so far simply explored the backyard, however, and not yet attempted to escape it.  That time is coming soon, though I hope it arrives *after* the flooring.

In the meantime, however, Bart has started exploring the cage now, because he's an asshole, and therefore is only comfortable going into it on his terms and nobody else's.  He finally investigated the den box (actually a dog house, shhh don't tell him) that we set up for him.  Starting tomorrow I'll be putting his food *inside* the cage to get him more comfortable with going into it voluntarily.  Once the floor is in, I'll be shutting him in there, though.

Why not just let him roam free?  Because I love the little bastard.  I'm afraid he'll get eaten by a dog, beaten by kids, shot by jackasses, run over by idiots, devoured by owls, and/or maimed/diseased by other cats.  Or that he'll bring home a disease and infect our other cats.  Or that he'll revert to being feral and we won't be able to cuddle with this jerk-face ever again.

When I let him in tonight, he promptly went behind the PacMan and peed on the floor.  Argh.  Asshole.
Apr. 25th, 2011 @ 10:27 pm Writer's Block: Eeny, meeny, miny, moe
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If you had to give up swimming, skiing, hiking, or biking for the rest of your life, which would you choose, and why?

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Easy question.  Skiing.  I feel as though I've already given that up. :-)  I hate the snow.  I hate the cold.  I would never go skiing.
Apr. 21st, 2011 @ 12:16 pm Writer's Block: Available: 3 bedroom, 2 bath, with hot and cold running chills
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Would you live in the perfect house or apartment rent-free if you found out a brutal murder had taken place there and it was rumored to be haunted? Why or why not?

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Hell yes.

As long as it had been properly cleaned, of course.

Haunted?  Really?  As Penn and Teller would say...Bullshit.
Apr. 21st, 2011 @ 12:00 pm Jenn v.2011...
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Apr. 20th, 2011 @ 04:20 pm Bart's Catio
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Bart's Catio
Originally uploaded by bayareajenn.

This is Bart's new catio that I built for him. Now I just need to put him in it.

Btw, my Aunt Sandy named it "a catio." She can be so brilliant sometimes.

There is a covered dog house with a soft pillow and his favorite blanket inside. There is a covered, roll-over litter box. There is a filtered water fountain (to encourage him to drink, since he has issues with staying hydrated. The roof is also a sun-shade. I even managed to fill the vertical space a little and install a hammock above the dog bed.

Apr. 19th, 2011 @ 01:06 pm Cat issues
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Argh, I am at my wit's end.

Bart has been peeing on the floor in a variety of places.  Just when we'd come up with a plan to deal with him, Archimedes has started peeing in those same places!

Plan for Bart:  He now has a collar with a tag, and we're going to put it on him and dose him (and the others) with flea stuff tonight.  We bought a dog run and will be assembling it today or tomorrow.  We also bought a watertight doghouse for him, and we have a covered litter box and some other things, and the plan was to turn him into an indoor/outdoor cat, training him to switch with food.  The collar is for the off-chance he decided to go on walkabout during switch.  He is also microchipped.  So anyway, he'll get to come inside only when we can watch him, and the rest of the time he'll be spending outside in the kennel. 

But now Arky has been going in the same spots as Bart.  It could be the litter boxes aren't clean enough for him (they are due for a change -- I'm using crystals), or it could be that he is marking his territory.

So I guess the plan is to get Bart out, then get the carpets deep-cleaned and enzymed to get rid of all the scent, and then see what Arky does?  If he persists in going outside the box...man, I can't live like this.  We may make Bart outdoor only, and put the old man (Arky) in the kennel. 

Then we have the food issues. )
Apr. 6th, 2011 @ 02:20 pm Weight Loss: First Goal Met!
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I have met my initial goal, and am now just 2.6 lbs away from my "cushion" goal. 

This means we can go ahead with IVF.

We may decide, however, to wait a few months, lose some more weight, and thus have a better chance of success and a better chance of a healthy pregnancy.  If I could lose weight like I did last time, I could be down to my pre-EATM weight (or less!) by the end of July.

It is really cool to know that in just 3 1/2 weeks I've lost 15 lbs.    If I can lose 15 lbs every month and keep it up, then I could actually get about 20 lbs or so *below* my pre-EATM weight by the end of July.  The trick would be in how to keep it going.  Because I am already so bored with the diet and the exercising.  And I know that I usually plateau somewhere about 30 lbs from now. 

I'll also have to come up with some alternate short-term goals now that I've almost reached both of mine.  Ideas?
Apr. 1st, 2011 @ 11:01 pm The Nightfall Incident
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Phew, I've finally hacked myself a way to interface with you guys again!

You are never going to believe this. I was walking a little Pomeranian just...a few hours ago? Feels like forever. Anyway, it was dark, and we were passing a still pool, and she started barking her fool head off. I looked around, and couldn't see anything! Talk about spooky. I went for my flashlight. It wouldn't come on. Suddenly all of the nearby streetlights went dark. I went for my phone.

Big mistake.

As soon as I entered the passcode, it had me. My old nemesis de-rezzed me and swallowed me up into the 'net. I had thought I was finally in the clear.  The day had been so uneventful. I had no idea how its capabilities had increased over the year.

Once again it put me into one of its "games." It's taken everything I know, but I've finally managed to hack an interface for you. Please, please come and help me get out. I have to get back to that little dog! Just follow the link.  Listen to Superphreak.  She's my interface program. 

And be careful!  It's after you, too, now.  I hope your hacking skillz are sharp.
Mar. 31st, 2011 @ 07:02 pm Animal News Update
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Well, I rarely agree with PETA, but in this case, I'll make an exception.

GoDaddy CEO hunts and kills a wild elephant in Africa, states that it was necessary because elephants are destroying crops, that they are numerous enough in that part of the country that they need to be hunted. Nevermind their IUCN rating as Threatened: Vulnerable. What Bob Parsons sees with his own eyes trumps anything scientists may have been studying over the past several decades, naturally.

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Mar. 25th, 2011 @ 03:44 am Writer's Block: No reservations required
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If you could go out to dinner with a character from a current TV show, who would you choose, and why?

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Why, the Doctor, of course. No explanation necessary.
Mar. 25th, 2011 @ 12:54 am Another PSA
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The past tense of the verb "to lead" is "led." If you say "The trail of breadcrumbs lead him home," it sounds like you're saying it in the incorrect tense, or for some reason you're missing the verb altogether and are talking about the element lead (Pb) somehow being made into breadcrumbs.

To sum up:
LED: light-emitting diode
led: past tense of "to lead"
lead: meaning, roughly, "direct the way" (verb); or a heavy metal element (noun).
Mar. 24th, 2011 @ 10:02 pm Heh, heh...period.
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Mar. 23rd, 2011 @ 07:28 pm PSA
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A "palate" is either the roof of your mouth (you have a soft palate and a hard palate), or your ability to identify things by taste, or even a descriptive term for the things you prefer to eat.

A "palette" is a board on which you mix your paints for painting, typically artwork.

A "pallet" is large, flat and made of wood, and is what large items get stored on to keep them off the ground and to help with moving them (forklifts can fit inside the pallets and lift them up with all the stuff loaded on top of them).
Mar. 14th, 2011 @ 02:13 pm Weight Loss
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As most of you know, I'm trying to lose weight so I can have IVF. My doctor wanted me to lose about 23 lbs from when I first saw him. I lost 10 on my own, but still needed another 12 or 13, and for the past...oh, six months or so I think, I've been waffling up and down the same two pounds.

Well, I instituted some operant conditioning methods, but that was not all. I also hired a personal trainer. I did (almost) exactly what she said, to the best of my ability, for just six days, and this is what happened: I lost 8.3 lbs!

I wasn't expecting to lose anything (except maybe one or two pounds of water weight because I started her training regimen on Day 2 of my period), especially because she warned me not to expect to see *any* results for one or two weeks.

Most of what she asked was pretty easy, because I was already doing it anyway, but there are a few key changes that I think contributed to the large weight loss in the initial week.

1. Her goal for me: drink 100 oz. (12.5 cups!) of fluids every day, 4 cups of which must be water. Well, I can't quite manage that, but I have managed to push it to 10 cups a day, especially because she doesn't care what the rest of the fluids are. So with breakfast and lunch I drink 2 cups of water each, and then the rest of the day I enjoy my diet soda. I also drink 2 cups of milk. I'm probably not supposed to count that as fluids, but I honestly cannot drink another drop in a day. Anyway, I think this was a factor because it was when I was on Weight Watchers. They also require a lot of fluids. I know that lipids go out in the urine, so it probably just makes getting rid of fat more efficient.

2. She's switched me from carb-heavy and protein-light to protein-heavy and carb-light. I think this is fine for the short-term, but I don't know how healthy it is for the long-term. It's a little bit of Atkins plus a little bit of South Beach. I still get to eat carbs, they just have to be healthy carbs, and I need to shoot for at least 80g (ideally at least 100g) of protein per day. I'm also personally shooting for 25g of fiber per day, so that does necessitate *some* carbs.
Some diet change examples:
Greek yogurt or egg white or egg subsitute for breakfast instead of regular yogurt.
Legume soup with tuna, other fish, or boneless, skinless poultry for lunch instead of legume soup with rice.
Not a change, really, but eating Weight Watchers meals for dinner really sticks me in that high-protein, low-fat, low-calorie target zone. Sometimes there's a lot of carbs, too, but it tends to work out ok.

3. She's restricted my calories even more than I did. I tried to make sure I was eating at least 500 calories less than I was burning. She's put me on a 1200 cal a day diet, no matter how much I burn! Then, I can either eat 1900 calories one day per week, or 1500 calories two days per week. This way, if I go over every once in a while, it is not the end of the world, and I know I have some wiggle room. It's like a little safety net. It's not too hard to stick to the 1200 calories if I'm either just working out or just walking 10k steps in a day, but when I do both, that 1200 feels awfully light. Still, it's going to be worth it, and has already been worth it.

4. She has me working out five days a week. We started with 30 min. of cycling on the stationary bike, plus 20 min. of aerobics, circuit training, weight training, or swimming. Well, swimming is closed right now where I live, so I do the others. We've since increased the cycling to 45 min. I can do an hour on the stationary, actually, but it gets so boring I'm less likely to do it if I know I have to sit there for an hour. And yes, I even have it in front of the TV and I *still* find it to be boring. The reason I think this is helpful is because before, while I *wanted* to work out every day, I rarely would. Now I have someone checking up on me, and it really helps. I want to perform for my trainer, lol. Oh, and also, I don't have to work out 7 days a week, which is nice and kind of a relief. Just 5 days. Whee!

5. She taught me some great PT for my core and my knees, and is going to teach me some more this week. This adds about 10 min. to my workout now, and will probably add 20 min. The great thing about this? I only need to do it every other day, not every day, and certainly not twice a day. These are body-building exercises that use myself as the weight, and yes they burn. It's great!

6. Eat five times a day. I'm not sure how effective this really is, because I still feel hungry at the end of the day. Still, I don't know that it *isn't* effective, either. I managed to go four whole days before overdoing my calories last week (1900 instead of 1500, which is what led to the revelation that she's ok if I eat 1900 cals once in a week, but then I can't eat 1500 twice the following week).

Those are the things that I think put me over the top and caused me to lose so much weight this week. I don't think I'll lose that much this week, but now I actually have an expectation that, if I don't cheat and I do exactly what my trainer tells me, I *will* continue to lose weight.

She has asked me to do a couple of other things, like get a membership at the Y and join a water aerobics class (which I'd love to do, just don't have the money, and am worried that my depression and/or my work schedule would keep me from it), and get a heart-rate monitor. I'd like to do the latter, too. I've found some for cheap on Amazon. My concern right now is that the chest strap won't fit around me. Requires more research. I have also promised to at least take a tour of the Y.
Mar. 13th, 2011 @ 12:16 am Writer's Block: Working hard for the money
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If your pet were a person, what occupation would they choose?

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Bart would be the voice of Cartman on "South Park."

Archimedes would become a professional blanket-tester. Testing for comfort. In his spare time he'd be a food critic.

Milhouse would become an opera singer-slash-Olympic decathlete.
Mar. 10th, 2011 @ 11:14 pm ...WTF.
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Well, there goes my good mood for the day.

NYTimes, the bastion of quality reporting, reported on the gang-rape of an 11 year-old girl in Texas  that's led to charges against 18 high-school boys so far - all well and good so far, right?  Shit like this NEEDS publicity to raise awareness. 

Only problem is, they repeated - without refutation or critical commentary - the claims that the girl brought the rape on herself because of the way she was dressed.

Choice Quotes (No cut b/c everyone needs to see this - DEAL.):

“It’s just destroyed our community,” said Sheila Harrison, 48, a hospital worker who says she knows several of the defendants. “These boys have to live with this the rest of their lives.  As opposed to the victim, who's gonna bounce back lickety-fucking-split, right?

Residents in the neighborhood where the abandoned trailer stands — known as the Quarters — said the victim had been visiting various friends there for months. They said she dressed older than her age, wearing makeup and fashions more appropriate to a woman in her 20s. She would hang out with teenage boys at a playground, some said.  TOTALLY BEGGING FOR IT.

THIS IS RAPE CULTURE, PEOPLE.

Now, what's being said and done in this community is bad enough, but the NY Times should be fucking ashamed of themselves right now.

Here's how to contact NYT: )

Mar. 10th, 2011 @ 09:09 pm Boycotts
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The story of a boycott in WI that is working:

http://www.dailykos.com/story/2011/03/10/954963/-Bank-that-funded-Walker,-now-Closed

Want to help Wisconsin boycott? See this list of companies that supported Walker's campaign:

http://scottwalkerwatch.com/?page_id=979
Mar. 10th, 2011 @ 10:15 am Absolutely appalling.
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Barca is a hero in my mind. Trying to stick up for the law amongst a bunch of idiots and bullies. I can even forgive him for saying "the gig is up" instead of "the jig is up." But seriously, I hope every one of the eligible Republican assholes gets recalled. See, Wisconsin? See what happens to you when you vote Republican?
Mar. 8th, 2011 @ 01:28 am Hmm.
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The HSSV job I applied for is no longer on their Web site.

Does that mean they filled the position, or just that they've closed it for receiving new applications?

If the latter, did mine make it in on time?  Or perhaps it was the one that made them realize they'd left it open too long?

Gah, I hate not knowing stuff.
Mar. 4th, 2011 @ 02:15 pm Job-hunting
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I applied for this job at the Humane Society of Silicon Valley (basically assessing dogs' and cats' suitability for adoption, and training them to make them more adoptable) and I feel absolutely sick about it.  I would LOVE to have a job like this.  It plays to all of my strengths.  I don't have the certification they want, or probably as much dog experience as they want, but everything else is right up my alley.  So why am I sick about it?  I've been out of real work for years now (Artemis notwithstanding -- it's barely an income), and it's a job I REALLY want, and so when I inevitably don't get it, or even get called for it, I will feel like crap.  And like, even if they do call me in for an interview, they'll see that I'm fat and assume I won't be able to do the work.  And then, on the minute chance I actually get the job...will my depression kill it like it did the last job I had?  Admittedly, that job suckkkkkkked, and this one probably wouldn't. 

Well, anyway, it took a large number of spoons to update my resume, answer all their silly questions, and click Submit.  But Submit it I did.
Mar. 1st, 2011 @ 09:44 pm The Dogbrella
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I have got to get one of these, and I don't even own a dog.

dogbrella

http://www.hammacher.com/Product/79317

I get so many people who hire me to walk their dogs in the rain, and then usually the dog doesn't have a raincoat, and about half of the dogs I walk are small dogs this would be perfect for.
Mar. 1st, 2011 @ 07:32 pm Applying Training Methods to my Weight Loss
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It's easy to train an animal to do something. Positive reinforcement at the moment the animal does the behavior. It's much harder to train an animal to STOP doing something, especially when it comes to something that is intrinsically reinforcing.

I have decided to apply operant conditioning to myself to accomplish two goals: 1. Exercise more, and 2. Eat less/eat healthy.

The first one is pretty easy. Tim and I have set up a schedule of rewards based on how many times per week I accomplish certain goals:
    Walk 10,000 steps in a day
    Do knee and back PT once (or better yet, twice) a day
    Use the exercise bike for 30 min. a day
    Do some sort of additional aerobic exercise for 20-30 min. per day: circuit training, step aerobics, or swimming

I am also being rewarded for eating meals made at home, which are healthier than eating out, especially since I cook low-sodium, low-fat, low-calorie meals.  We do not keep tempting food in the house any more (unless we're having a party), like sweets, snacks or fat-full foods.  We do keep some low-calorie snacks, but not many.

The rewards include: head-scratch from Tim, foot-rub from Tim, Tim feeds the cats, Tim cleans the litter box, I get to order a BigFish game, or I get to buy stuff from Thinkgeek.  The rewards are scaled based on how successful I am in a week.  There is NO punishment for when I fail to meet a goal, other than I missed that opportunity for a reward.

I am also going to say "Yes!" or "Way to go Jenn!" or other such things as a way of instantly reinforcing the behavior whenever I finish an exercise goal in a day.  Most of the above rewards require me to finish the goal several times in a week.


Now for the hard stuff.  How do you train an animal NOT to eat?  I'll be using the guidelines set out in Karen Pryor's Don't Shoot the Dog.

1. Shoot the animal.
Ok, we're not going to do that, although it WOULD solve my eating problem. :-)  Instead, we are keeping bad-for-me foods from being in the house.  Tim is doing more of the shopping, so that limits my opportunities to buy that junk, because I am just lazy enough not to go out and buy it unless I absolutely have to go to the store anyway.  This will not completely solve the problem, though, so let's look at the other methods.

2. Punishment.
I think this method sucks, so we're not using it.  I don't want to slapped every time I eat something unhealthy, or I eat too much of something.  It might stop the behavior, but more likely I'd start sneaking it, and at the same time resenting Tim for slapping me (or whatever).

3. Negative Reinforcement.
Punishment's little brother.  I already have plenty of negative reinforcement, and it doesn't help me do anything but feel bad about myself.  I can't fit into clothes or look good in clothes.  I can't get the job I want.  I can't move and dance like I used to.  I get pain in my knees and back.  This is all negatively reinforcing, but it isn't immediate enough to have an effect.  Tim could give me a dirty look every time I was about to do something bad with my diet, or I could put an electric buzzer on the fridge and pantry handles, or something like that.  It's not as bad as punishment, and can be effective in places, but I can't think how it can be effective in this situation, so we decided to skip it.

4. Extinction
Well, clearly this behavior is not going to go away on its own, so this method will not work at all, or it would have by now.

5. Train an Incompatible Behavior
Ah...this I can use.  For example, when I'm craving something bad for me, I eat a pretzel stick instead.  It's a lot less bad.  When I'm hungry for something crappy at home, I will try to eat something healthy (or at least healthier) instead.  Another thing I could do is go for a walk whenever I feel peckish and it isn't a regular meal-time.  Sometimes I will do this, but I've gotten pretty good at not snacking between meals, and it's usually the late-night cravings that get me, where I'm not likely to go out for a walk.  So instead, I stay where I am and I don't get the snack.  Staying where I am (away from the snacks) is incompatible with snacking.  One thing I do pretty consistently is try to play a computer game that involves both hands.  This makes it very hard to eat and play at the same time.  It's a great way to keep myself from eating for a while.  And for eating healthy, finding healthy foods that also taste good (fresh cut fruit with fat-free, calorie-free Cool Whip is a favorite of mine) can often (though not always) be a sufficient substitute for the unhealthy food.  If I've gotten full on healthy snacks, it's harder to keep going and eat the unhealthy stuff.

6. Put the Behavior on Cue
This is another one we are working on.  A big problem for me is that I eat in front of the TV or in the living room with my computer SO OFTEN that I frequently just get hungry for sitting down.  This is a Pavlovian response, and we are changing it by not only sticking to general meal-times, but making it a requirement that I sit and eat at the kitchen table for every meal.  Eventually this will apply to every snack, as well, but we are taking baby steps.  In fact, for the first few days, I frequently forgot and like a zombie just took my food out to the living room with me.  So, the cue for eating will become sitting at the dining room table.  This is especially convenient because the only other thing we use that table for is playing board games during parties.  Ok, I might get overly snackish during a party, but that's a lot better than being overly snackish every single moment of every day.

7. Shape the Absence of the Behavior
We're not so great with this, but I'm trying to remember to tell Tim when I've stuck to my diet: healthy food, correct portions, etc., so he can give me a verbal or tactile reward.  I also need to remember to tell myself, "Great job for eating that healthy breakfast!" and "Awesome!  You haven't eaten anything in four hours!" Or such-like.  Once again, there is no punishment for eating, eating at an inappropriate time, eating something unhealthy, or eating too much.  Just praise and reinforcement for not eating, eating at the right time, eating healthy, and eating a proper portion size.

8. Change the Motivation
This is complicated.  To do this, I have to know, why do I eat too much?  Why do I eat unhealthy foods?  Why do I hate to exercise?  Well, for the first two, food is comforting.  It makes me feel good.  So my depression is a key factor in my unhealthy eating habits.  To use this method, I would need to address the underlying depression.  So I need to work on finding personal fulfillment.  For me this is a bit of a catch-22, because I think I'll find a lot more personal fulfillment if I could just lose weight, but since it's a long-term goal, I'm going to keep trying for a job I love, keep trying to get that mew built, keep trying for a baby, and keep doing the escapist things that make me happy: rpging, TV, computer games, reading, surfing the net, etc.  As for the exercise one, frequently I'm either bored or in pain, so I'm working on making exercise both more interesting and less painful.  For the pain, I've added physical therapy to my exercise goals, complete with their own rewards, and I have a knee brace and I take Aleve on a daily basis.  For the boredom, I have an exercise bike in a room with a TV with a Netflix connection, and that helps.  I decided to incorporate geocaching into my lifestyle because it helps me get my steps in in a fun way (I'm a sucker for a game!).  I'm thinking of hiring a trainer who can help keep me motivated and improve the efficacy of my work-outs.  I'm also thinking about getting a Y membership so I can swim all year round, but I'm not sure I'd have the energy to go...but then, I could always train the behavior. :-)
Feb. 20th, 2011 @ 09:34 am (no subject)
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In case you've been living under a rock, my home state of WI -- in my college town of Madison -- is undergoing protests right now because the Republican majority is trying to pass a bill to take away the right government workers have to collectively bargain. In case you don't know me at all, I fully support the protesters, and wish I was there right now. Whether or not you agree that unions are beneficial, most people agree that people should have the right to unionize if they so choose.

This video shows a Wisconsin Democrat calling out the Republicans for their shenanigans. It's good. Watch it.

Feb. 15th, 2011 @ 03:51 pm Psycho Parrot, Qu'est-ce Que C'est?
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The one crazy Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde parrot that I sit for bit the crap out of my hand again.


 

I feel pretty much like a failure whenever I let an animal bite me.

But then I remember that one of my EATM professors got bit in the ass by a mountain lion, and he's still workin'.  :-)